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The worst had arrived. Like what everyone has been dreading about, the holidays are over! In fact, it ended in such a swift rate, just like the speed of a heart attack. Everything just happened so... unknowingly that it takes me a couple of seconds to know that I am dying soon. In fact, if I were to choose, I would rather be dead right now, like seriously.
Still, life goes on.
Despite the occupation of monday blues in me, I still dragged my feet to the school, facing the inevitable Prelims. Sighs...though given the long break, it is (probably)reasonable to expect a little more from us, as in results. But I seriously feel that the teachers shouldn't carry too much hope. Supposedly, this week-long break is the LAST AND ONLY break-through that we could make, however most of us STILL remained as lazy bums and did not really make full use of this 'luxury week'. To put it simply, we are still unaware of the dire straits we are in.
History repeats itself and once again, I am overwhelmed with regerets. The only difference is that, this time round it happens at a later date, at a diiferent timing, at a different scenario but of the same reason- I m slacking too much. For people like Jon, it is the computer games addiction. For people like Kim, it is the addiction to television and probably horny magazines?! lols. However, for me, it is none of the above. It is something out of the ordinary but definitely queer.
It is my obsession to mirrors. And uh...probably Soyabean!?
Truthfully, everyday without fail, I would stand in front of the mirror for hours (uh...probably not this much. maybe an hour at most) and stare at the mirror, looking for imperfections. Sometimes, even in the course of studying, I would just stand up suddenly and look at the mirror closely, looking for flaws. Even a strain of stray hair gets on my nerves! I know it is getting just too much but I couldn't stop it. My obsession to perfection and flawless skin is just getting overbearing. If this goes on, I know that 'O's would definiely be a big problem to me. And this, would be the biggest obstacle to my success.
In just a matter of time, in fact with in 22days' time(my own schdule) it will soon be the starting of the 'O' levels. From this moment on, especially after the prelims, it will be a mayhem. Time would fly in the speed of sound. Nothing would be able to stop it and soon, with each passing day, it simply means the closer I am to the deadline, my death. The 'O's will arrive in no time and there lies my coffin. This could happen, face the music! My future lies in my hand. Only I, ME and MYSELF could be able to change my fate.
I must avert my attention to studies. I must! I must! I must! ROAR.ROAR.ROAR. Concentate and persevere is the key! Studies first, Soyabean second.
Sighs...
