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Labels: soyabean still as cute as everYou are living in denial if you were to say you are unaware of it.
You knew it, so sure of my existence and my small secret.
Yes, I adnit I don't have guts and I am not planning to do anything rash.
All I want to do is just to stare at you from afar and look at the smiles litting up your face.
It is just so simple...
Labels: soyabean still as cute as ever
You have spotted it. It been a long time since you found out, I guess.
The truth has finally presented itself after such a long time.
I am speechless, my heart froze in panic. I have no ides what to do next.
Your actions made me wonder all the time.
Labels: soyabean still as cute as ever
I have just finshed reading Twilight by Stephenie Meyer!
Actually, it is not just, I finshed reading the book yesterday. Despite the countless number of essays we have to memorise, I took up a little (okays, I lied quite a lot actually, probably 3hours?!) of my time reading this romantic novel. I give it 4.9/5 stars. Seriously, the storyline is so captivating that little did I know I finshed this book within a shocking 2 days!
In short, Twilight is about this girl, Bella falling in love with Edward, a gorgeous human-lookalike vampire , soon after she arrived at Forks to stay with her dad. Ever since Bella's first day in High school, Edward knew she was 'the one'. From then on, they fell love and with each passing day, their love for each other deepened. They went through thick and thin and nearly had Bella killed when Edward arrived just in time to rescue that poor little girl from the clutches of another vampire. Ever since that toughest moment, they realised they could not live without one another and the story continues, with many more obstacles waiting for them, only to prove that their love for one another is sincere and true.
Isn't it sweet? Aaawww... I can't wait to get my hands on New Moon! I can't wait to finsh all four books in this series at once. Probably you couldn't understand why I am so nuts about this, but seriously, you would not want to stop reading once you get started. Get hooked on it like me and you will understand how am I feeling! There was even a peiod of time when I was so captivated by this story that I actually thought of how soyabean could be a vampire. Me, a human. LOLS.
Twilight rocks!
Love is in the air.
P.s I miss my blanket. Thinking that it is still basking under the hot menancing sun breaks my heart. 'Bei bei, my lovely blanket!' It would never be the same as before no matter how identical it look. It will not be as cuddlish as before, it will not be as cold before, it will never be my soft blanky. I hate washing my blankets. They weren't just....the same anymore. *pout lips*
May fate bring us together just like what happened to Bella and Edward. I would never forget what happened today=)
Labels: soyabean still as cute as everThe rain came crashing down without any warning. I looked out ahead, aware of its impact as the sound of raindrops masked the rhythm of my love songs. It had been raining so much these days that it seemed like the sun has been vanished into thin air.
Our usual hot and dry weather looks as if it had been replaced by this cold and moist weather. It is chilling to my bones and my body does not seem to be adapting to these changes. My blanket had been so cold to the touch these days. Rather than it keeping me warm, it is instead, my body, which is supplying all that heat to keep my blanket warm. How irony is this?
I have just returned from school after attending the Chemistry prelims. It was not too bad, as compared to the pure science papers. It shall be Social studies and English tomorrow, yeah, two tough papers in a day.
Probably SS would not be much of a problem if I were to revise the answering technigues again.
I hope that eveything would go on smoothly tomorrow.
Everything is just moving wwaaayy too fast.
Today being the 59th day to 'O' levels, I shall start a project named 'Seize those words', this project is not created to bore you to your nerve-endings but to encourage readers to devote more of our time to English. We shall prove Ms Betsy wrong!
In an effort to benefit readers of my blog, I shall be introducing 6 golden words in my post everyday.
Let's start with something easy:
Mundane(adj)- ordinary and boring.
Ostracize(verb)- to be unfriendly towards someone and to diallow him to be part of your group.
Feign(verb)- to pretend.
Foreboding(noun) a feeling that something bad will happen.
Foremost(adj)- most important or famous.
Forlorn(adj)- sad and lonely
Labels: 'Chiong' I could do itThe prelims started off with Chinese, which, obviously many of us didn't study for. I am one of them. That dreadful feeling of re-taking Chinese is.... URGH! Totally sick and disgusting!
Till today, I still could not believe that I am re-taking my Chinese AGAIN!
I could not believe that I am waking up at 6.05, I could not believe that I am in my school uniform dragging my feet to school, I could not believe that I am writing Chinese letters... I could not believe that the Chinese prelims had already ended. I could not believe everything! Everything is so much like a dream. The reality is I have to get my A1 and since I have gotten that A2, I must retake it. Yes, I want my A1 but I do not wish to retake anything concerning Chinese. This is so contradicting yet I am hoping for the impossible.
WAKE UP!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!
what a crappy feeling=(
Labels: 'Chiong' I could do it
Just recently, I have finally developed a love for something. Something unusual, something I dislike in the past, something queer. Yeah, I know this might sound weird and nuts but seriously, I like studying!
I remembered those days when I hated history so much, to the core-est of the core, and how restless I become at the mention of "take out your History workbook,". Those torturous history lessons that I could still vividly recall, yes, every single detail of it.
But things have seemed to change.
Not that I crave for Rahim and his lessons everyday but there is just an urge for me to head home for some History facts and blah, an urge for me to file in those history worksheets and present it at its very best. It is queer of how things could be changed at such a short while. The history textbook now seems like a storybook with its events unfolding in front of me every time I flipped open it, despite the countless number of times I have done them and the countless number of times those events repeated themselves. It, somehow, amazes and interests me.
I am unsure of how this change of heart had occured, but at the very least, it is a change for the better, isn't it?
Aaaahhh, The Chinese Prelims is tomorrow! Sighs...this is one thing, one subject that I certainly dreaded about. The thought of having to retake another Chinese'O's and having to make an extra effort recalling all that formats and proverbs is certainly an unpalatable truth for me to accept. One fact that I still running away from.
Labels: worrried
I am definitely running out of time and seriously behind my schedule. Sighs..I just could not concentrate when the computer is on, so seriously, I m kicking the habit of blogging daily, in the hope that this would not affect my English much.
Life has been as usual, very very busy and boring. Results especially Emath has been dropping after some slight improvements made in those previous tests. Sighs...it is just like a roller coaster ride which is really not consistent and definitely very amusing and shocking at the same time. What had gone wrong?
But I am slowly regaining my momentum back, regaining my energy back, regaining that diligent and hardworking old self again, at the same time, forgeting those memories just to concentrate more on my studies. I shall bounce up like a ball but that never falls. Rise, rise, rise...
The sky is the limit!
But will we succeed under such time constraint? I wonder....
Doesn't this look like Yuki??!! *screams*So cute!
Labels: I - touchtouch
Mum had ordered me to get some sleep but I insist that I would not sleep a wink for today, well, but I didn't tell her that=) I hope that she doesn't finds out. It is already 1.05am in the morning! Tmr/Today shall be the start of a new week. Sighs...the thought of it makes me sick in a way. Why can't there be a 3-day weekend? Schooling is getting so boring nowadays, except for the fact that I would get to see Soyabean. I know this is the umpteen time i have been saying this, but seriously, where do you find so much time to complete all your homework?
Completing the basic- homework has already been a BIG PROBLEM to me, not to mention those self-revision stuffs. Currently, I am still rushing through 1)THE Chem TYS 2) English Compre; the whole of it! 3)RV paper2 4)Social studies essays and 5)My tuition work.
OH NO!
That is certainly one of the MAIN contributing factor to my whole lot of pimples! I bet boys would'nt have suffered from those serious acne if weren't for those stress levels that are mostly coming from the teachers. That must have been 99.9999% contributing factor, while the another 0.000001%, perhaps, could have come from the chocolates they have been indulging in, since chocolates are just so irresistible to resist. YUM! I m getting so lame.
Talking of food craves, guess what mad things I have done to stop my temptations?
I have just bought a whole lot of my favourite foods just to encourage myself to head home straight after school. LOLS, HAHAHAHA, my house is a food empire now! Well, these are the things that i have bought:
A box of Nestle Kokocruch ceral, I know it is kiddy, but it is nice kays!
A packet of peanut snack
A box of custard puffs
A packet of Vitagen
Peanut butter (These stuffs aren't meant for bread. They are to be just taken like that with a spoon. That is what Ah chirp did too, lols:)
and not to forget, my Nasi Lemak!! Haha, but that is what I have bought earlier this week, on Saturday. I am just merging those things I have purchased within this weekend that is related to my madness. Haha, just to convince you that I m seriously mad about foods!
Oh well, it is already 1.32am, I have taken exactly 27 mins to complete this post. It isn't too much a waste of my time rights?
I really miss Soyabean. Sighs...
Emotional control needed. Argh!
Labels: soyabean still as cute as everOH NO! A warning for a start for Project S.O.S!
Pimples are popping up one after another these days. Scars are also sufacing as I could not stand the urge not to provoke them. Worst of all, I have even received comments on my darker skin tone. OH NO! This is a disastrous news for me.
HOLY SHIT!URGH!!!!
Okays this is the list that I have compiled to savage my skin:
HABA WHITELADY(10ml) $29/ $76
ZA WHITE EMULSION $19
LANCOME SPOT ERASER(5ml) $18
KOSE MASK WHITE $29vichy bi white intensive corrective care $72Finale Whitening Cream
Rules to abide:
1)No fast foods
2)Lots of plain water
Let's pray that Project S.O.S would be a success!
That's all for it now. Off to complete the rest of Biology!
The English Oral today was not too bad, it was, to my advantage actually. The conversion topic was about what is your favourite hairstyle and I was thinking
'OMG, BEAUTY -RELATED QUESTION, I BETTER VOMIT SOME UNIQUE THINGS OUT!!' And I really did! It was more like a crapping session though. Mr Tien asked me how I actually implanted my beauty knowledge in and I was like describing to him about the way I said.
So here it is(The funny part):
(Ahem)Being a modest and conservative (ahem) kind of student, I would like to have clean cut that would not disrupt my thoughts.... Being a student, we should focus more on studies, rather than beauty cause it is our job.... hence....
Mr Tien laughed hysterially upon hearing my answer and he was like 'HAHAHAHAHA, U, CONSERVATIVE? And I was like Yeah, Must fake a bit before he continued grasping for air. LOLS.
Anyways, I have decided to re-take my chinese 'O' level, so yeah, wish me luck then.
Off to study Biology!
Soyabean, Wheee....
Labels: doleful
A depressing day it have been. You're right, A2 is alright.
But it is not, to me! IT IS NOT OK! IT IS NOT OK! IT IS A BAD SCORE! IT IS A FREAKING A2! WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS? *sighs*
Just returned home after lunch in KFC. AMaths papers were returned back, though I did pretty well, but what is the bloody use? These are only practices. It does not guarantee an A1, does it?
Well, if u you insist that it DOES makes a difference, then I shall tell you it doesn't. I m the perfect example, look at my freaking A2! Have I done well in the chinese mock or any of the class tests? Have i? So what if I have done well? Still, I don't get an A1. So what if you are SUPER-dilligent, people who are smart could overtake you with just a small effort.
LIFE IS SO UNFAIR, AIN'T IT?
I m feeling okay now, just a little hungry.
MMM...I have this sudden crave for Mcdonald's hashbrowns, my nasi-lemak, and papaya soyamilk from AMK Mr bean, just the minute I woke up. It is 6hours and 40mins more before I head down to my extra amaths tuition. Probably, I shall reward my taste buds if I could complete the to-do list later on.
I am not too sure why but I would usually get to satisfy my craving in a, I would say, miraculous way.
The other day, when I was in East Coast hawker cente, wondering what to fill my stomach, I combed the entire hawker center and eventually settled for those black noodles(Cha Kuay Teow). It was a tough decision, though. There were so much award winning stalls, Duck rice, Satays and Laska but I have only a choice. From then on, I had the tempation to eat Laska, just out of a sudden, especially after whiffing in those heavenly coconut-riched air emulating from Pearl's bowl of Laska later on.
Then...miraculously, a day later, my aunt and uncle brought Laska for dinner! I was so thrilled. The greedy me gobbled down a half bowl of it, before leaving the dining table, feeling sssooo satisfied.
And soon another day has passed and it was Sunday. In the early morning at 8am, I woke up and headed for tuition. In the midst of doing maths, out of all things, a plate of cha kuay teow popped out in my head. Mmmm...
Straight after tuition, I dashed to the nearest hawker center to satisy my cravings. Yummy! I attended my English tuition soon after, had this ANOTHER Papaya soyamilk crave, and bought it! My friends were complaining how weird i am yesterday. I admit it, Im nuts about about food, my taste buds are just getting so sensitive LOLS.
In the later part of the day, just before dinner, my body just crave so badly for the sweet and sour tofu that my mum made ages ago. Thinking of the orange-tinted sauce laden with plain rice just makes me drool(of course not literally!). Before I knew it, the dish was just in front of me in the next moment. Wow! That is another sort-of-miracle happening.
Erm...
I wonder if I posses any hidden powers. Maybe I should just crave for 7A1s now....
Breathe, breathe, breathe....
Just minutes ago, I have found out someone had thrown away my precious pieces of pink papers, and almost immediately, a wave of rage just swept over me before I stood up of my chair, screamed and demanded the culprit to admit to his/her mistake. I swore and cursed. Who is that busybody?
It was my mum.
Tension was so tense at that point of confession. I was so faring mad, even though she was my mum, how could she throw away my things without my permission? Yeah, and she could even answer me in such a calm tone.
"It is in the rubbish bin,"
I thought it was the one outside my room, but neither did I thought she was referring to the gigantic bin outside my house gate. This fuelled my anger even more. What? That smelly bin? How could I revive that back? But those pieces of paper were of such importance to me that I flew down the stairs without a second thought.
Finally, I took a deep breath, opened the bin and was surprised to see the bag of rubbish lying in that dry, odour-less green bin. I fished out my pieces of papers among all the other paper based rubbish and returned back to my room again, relieved. Nonetheless, my anger had not receded and I was still at the verge of exploding any minute.
SHUT UP AND LET ME GO.
Labels: the last push
Happy Birthday Singapore!
Though it was the nation's birthday today, nothing much special really happened. The clock continues ticking, the fan continues spinning and the workload remained piling up so high.
From head to toe, my body just aches so much, to the extent of sitting down slowly and gently so the my spine wouldn't hurt that much. I feel like an old woman, so sick and tired that even a simple reflex action like lifting a finger requires much thought and effort to acheive. I don't even feel like thinking. Not to mention cracking my head over some maths sums.
Nonetheless, I could not allow myself to let the day go to waste. So I figured out THE perfect posture of sitting/lying while doing something beneficial. I leaned my back against my pillow up 90 degrees, with my legs stretched out so that the wounds would not have any contact with anything physical, cuddled my soft blue blanket and started reading. Reading was what I did all day. I completed reading Teenage magazines, Reader's digest and a book called Karin's dilemma in the noon. As for the rest of the day, I attempted some Anderson Secondary maths questions which nearly bored me to tears. It was not that it was too easy, but it was just so freaking tricky, difficult and disgusting that left my mind wondering in my 'Lala land' before I came out of my room to have a breather.
I know the 'O's is coming in a month's time or two, the prelims in a week or two. But I m just getting too restless, worned out and so not motivated to start studying. Biology mock exam would be held next week and I have not even touched any chapters. I just don't feel like thinking cause I m feeling so ache all over. Every motion I take is pain. All I want to do is to stare into apace and stone there... My future seems so bleak all of a sudden.
Labels: cutest soyabean
The class outing was great, except for the countless number of falls I had while learning to blade. But it was still fun, after all I have mastered how to blade within 4hours. Whooooo, I have a talent for rollerblading=) All thanks to my wonderful coachers;kim and Jason.
I must say, it is a blessing that I have maintained my fair skin tone despite cycling in the blazing hot sun for 2hours. I am not sure if my limbs gets any tanner than usual but I don't really care. It is my face that really matters, it is my face that I have spent a bomb on all along and I would not let the sun rays to destroy all my efforts. I hate the sun. Not only does it makes us tanner, it causes premature aging which leds to wrinkles and brown spots over time (and even skin cancer). Hence, we should always block the sun from reaching us and the only way to prevent this is to apply sunblock(different from sunscreen) consistently. Fine, but this only applies to girls, I guess guys are usually healthier looking in tanned skin tones but too much of it isn't a good thing either.
HOWEVER,
I have few more bruises added to my limbs and I bet my limbs must be looking at its worst state ever. There is one really big one at my left ankle, another smaller one at my right knee and two other small ones at my knees and ankle. URGH! And ouch, my spine and butt hurts too.
Okays, enough of the lamenting. I shall start my engine today after a great day in the beach. Off to study=)
We, class 4Electrizzare are going ECP tmr! It is the last moment that we could share before our 'O's so let's cherish these precious moments!
But seriously, I m not very enthu about this trip cause going to the beach means getting tanned. Oh man, my face seriously need some whitening cream. It is getting darker and darker each day! NNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I hate this! I want my fair skin tone! I want my fair skin tone!
Labels: cutest soyabean
Another addition to my 'bruise collection'
Oh well, P.E lessons had been so fun these days that whenever there is a P.E lesson, I would definitely have an addition bruise or injury to my body. It was first, a hit by a shuttlecock right at my forehead together with an almost-sprain and eventually a fall last Tuesday, and now, it was a drastic fall from the chair 1 metre above ground level. I landed on my knees with the ball crouched tightly in my arms before everyone began scurrying towards me. I did not cried, instead I began laughing hysterically non-stop when the girls are so concerned over my fall. Nonetheless, I rise up to my knees again and 'persevere' till the end.
It was only redness over that area at first then it started bulging up like an air sac, and soon before I knew it, it turned to a blue-black. Urgh! Not again!
In conclusion, I shall praise myself as the...
most 'wei da' captain ever!
I risked my life for the ball and luckily my sacrifce was not wasted as we won the game after all, all thanks to me. Yays! LOLS, I m just kidding. It is the team effort that made everything possible. High fives for my team members- Nigel, Pearl, Wen Xin, Jolin, Jiajia, and of course, all the caring and thoughtful girls who came to my rescue! I love 4e! Whooo....
Oh, before I forget, today's Trigo test was surprising very do-able, well actually, both tests are quite easy and not what I have expected, you know, that kind of killer papers. Good for us!
Labels: cutest soyabeanOh no, Trigonometry and Plane Geometry test would be held tomorrow. The worst thing is, I have not completed my revision booklet. Dammit. I hate Trigo, I hate Trigo, I hate Trigo, I hate Trigo, I really do. Yikes.
Labels: cutest soyabean
In our hectic secondary four life, everyday just passes by like a flash of lightning, so fast and so unknowingly. It has been a torture having to face the endless homework and tests each day. I am so sick and tired of this. 77 more days to go, would I be able to persevere till the end?
I wonder.
Only one thing that would make me smile- My Soyabean.
Special dedication to 'Ti o' Tien(cause he spys on people's blog):
Oh, I get it, you read my blog right. Haha. I know you must be jealous that I say Mr Koh is nice rights? Only a muffin what, that muffin isn't poisonous, that person didn't die from eating it, I swear. I would say you are nice if u offer me a muffin too. LOLS.
Labels: Where are you
No 1 achievement of the day- I passed my Emaths test! WOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHH...
*evil laugher + grin**
Chinese lesson was, as usual, quite hilarious with Mrs Tan's lame jokes. I think she just posess this funny but natural way of talking, but anyways, we did the zuo ye today and almost the whole class had to squat down as a punishment for not doing the homework. Well, I did get punished but that is bcos I forgot to bring the book. Miracously, She chose me out of the whole 26 people to narrate the whole story out. So there I was, recalling the storyline and at the same time injecting some humour in it( But I think no one got it) as if they were little kids listening to some grandmother stories. I was then given a chance to sit, reason being as I am a good storyteller. LOLs, I am kidding.
The 'O' levels Chinese results would be released on the 12th. Oh man, I m so numb with fear right now. I m looking forward to this day, NOT.
P.s The Ikea magazine is so awsome. I love their designs so much. I want a long mirror, and wait, a new wardrobe, oh yea, and a table lamp and a carpet and a pink bedsheet and.... Oh man this is starting again. The Obsessive Jiahui.
Labels: A torturous day without soyaI want a laptop, I want an IPHONE, I want a new schoolbag, I want the kose nose mask, I want new shoes, I want shopping, I want more dresses, I want to eat egg tarts, I want some boxes of tako-balls, I want to drink some vitagen, I want, I want, I want!!!!! I want NEED TIME!
Okays, enough of the lamenting. No one could ever satisfy my material demands. It is just so ever-ending. They are right, niu ren de dong xi shi mai bu wan de. Argh! This is so irritating. I am broke, I am broke, I am broke.
As if things aren't bad enough for me, I realised that a blue black had found its nestling place on my left knee. An ugly black spot has inhabited permanently on my leg. What is this? What is this? When did this start to appear? Get away! Go away! I want my blemish-free leg back!
UUURRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Labels: cutest soyabean
Yawns. I am feeling a little tired now.
I have just came back from our oral session with Ms Betsy and it was really hilarious, especially with Cheng Siong as our new member in our group. Ms Betsy is really nice too, she gave us a number of sincere suggestions which came across quite useful. Though it was supposed to be study session, it was actually more like a chit-chatting session for us. We shared our views and also, at the same time, listened to others' opinions and suggestions together with their views on life as a whole. It was quite inspiring actually, I really enjoyed it.
The two hour session went past just in a twinkle of an eye. Eventually, we ended our session at 9.30 and went for some dinner/supper after a formal greeting/goodbye to Ms Teo. Serious! We really hummed the rhyme of "Goodbye, Ms Teo, thank you Ms Teo" and she was like " Are you kidding me?". Haha.
We went for Mcdonalds after that and was surprised to see some of the band people like Kaiying, Joyce, manting, Jason and klehmond... (i could not rmb lerhs) at the basement. By then, it was already 10pm.
After a quickie at Mcdonalds, we went on separate ways back home. What an eventful night!
Labels: plasters for poor soya.
YAYS! 79 marks for Amaths Revision test!! Yays!Yays!Yays!
Haha, I have finally tasted success after so much hard work=) Yes!!!! Look at the moon, I m there! (I m over the moon)okays, I m being lame.
Off to revise Chemsitry then. I will be giving up Geography anyways.
Bye guys!
